sigh....like you mean it

hey bitches...
here in my apartment, with a thunderous storm outside, im drinking coffee, watching lost in translation, and reading charlie and the chocolate factory....i saw the first wonka film , and havent seen the new one, i wanted to read the actual book first....the heat is stifling, i always walk around naked or in my underwear when no one is home, sometimes, when they are home, then only in my underwear, bc it is so hot here, and we dont have air conditioning....rosana is sad..
.......i left her a voicemail and a lj comment a minute ago, so hopefully i will speak to her tonight....sometimes i realize how detached i am from everything, but then i really think about it and realize that its not really detachment but maybe acceptance, or something else..
like myhy computer works, b ut no really i spent alot of $ on it in december and ive taken it to the genius bar, but now i have to take it again and i accidentally broke my phone last night, it works but the body of it is broken, and i bought it only in october for over $100, so that needs to get fixed, but i dont find myself freaking out bc what good would it do, i would be upset and it would nt help, so i find myself being laid back about these things i guess...
sometimes all i want is to be absolutely alone and still just thinking and listening
other times i feel as i i will break out of my skin at the hint of stillness
i will go read the book and then write more